I am writing a poem

My poem is about Russell 

My poem is not safe

But it is good

Sometimes the people you love really hurt you before your coffee kicks in, or you're aware enough to know that you feel bad.

Sometimes the people you love make little recreations of themselves. 

Sometimes you love no one. 

I realized today that if you died it is highly possible that I would be the one who had to tell your mom.

I am ok with being the one who has to tell your mom.

But if I have to tell your boys, then I quit life. 

Not only do I not want the responsibility, I don't want to explain to my daughter why I am so sad.  

I don't know if I'd show up to your funeral, but I would build you a house.  

slug once said
"kill me in my thirties in the name of progress"
but i don't think i'm ready to die quite yet
all y'all
are too timid to condone fighting nazis
yet you want to see real change in the world

for real change to come
more than a few fascists
are gonna need a thorough punching

i kind of wish canada would build a wall
/ stop letting us in all together
and then when THEY get their way
it'd just be us
and we could all drown in our own
self loathing
floating bloated
somewhere in between
all the tacos and poutine
and both oceans

castrate the rich
would be a good rallying call
or at least would certainly help
in cases of nepotism pussy grabbing and
miyata purchasing mid life catastrophes

don't kill me yet
i don't have enough nazi scalps