there are things i remember

it had been a long day
we were both tired
there was no filter anymore
no barrier holding feelings back
we just were

the ocean crashed
just feet away from us
lapping at the land

tired but not done
we held each other
on that deck chair
on that roof
and for a minute
brief albeit
just listened to the ocean

then with the next wave it all flooded back
the emotion
the tired
the the
the thing that keeps us up
and pushes us forward

the desire for more

we held each other
not for pleasure
not even for comfort

but to keep us from floating off
into the infinite abyss

we held each other
to make sure we stayed there
in that moment

you fell asleep
and i carried you down the stairs to the couch
finding rest myself in a hammock
in paradise

the morning would be better
shoes or not

and we'd still be
here
there
ready
waiting
moving
bursting with life

i remember vaguely

yelling at the sky